Beginning of Summer

We drained the pool this Friday for some cleaning and maintenance that was very much needed. And as we are filling it up again, the monkey would just stare at the water. Every summer Bella, our golden retriever would be the first one to get in. And then the monkey would join her. And this…

Happiness will flow.

I had a rough health scare a few weeks ago. It was a wake up call. Doctors were concerned that with my age, I shouldn’t be having these types of issues. But understandably so, special needs kids come with challenges, that come with stress, that can lead to health concerns.This is a tough topic to…

World Autism Day 💙

Today, April 2nd, is World Autism Day. I remember before my son was born, I’d acknowledge this day existed. I had heard about autism but that was the extent of it. But I never really fully understood the significance of this day. How does one understand what others go thru until they walk in their…

You’ve got this.

The monkey’s sleeping wasn’t getting any better. His routine was to wake up at 1, 2, 3, in the morning. He’d turn on all of the lights. Get his iPad. Go downstairs and play on his indoor swing. Run up and down the stairs laughing. Running from my bathroom to his room. This was pretty…

I see you you.

I changed departments at work recently and have been working crazy amount of hours. That’s pretty typical since it’s all new and I need to learn most of it. Add this new job to the monkey not sleeping, well it’s been tough. And as I walk into my office today, I see this note from…

Small Gestures

Driving at 2, 3 am while the monkey is humming to his favorite song over and over, I can’t stop my mind from wondering. I see how everyone is asleep. The emptiness of the street makes me feel that we are just not part of this world. How is it possible that 6 or more…

Happy Moments

The monkey has a thing about jackets or sweaters. He is fine wearing a jacket for school. Not for home. We give in for something just because we don’t think it is worth the fight. If he wants to go on a drive, he will grab a blanket, wrap it around, and run towards the…

Class Cancelled

Class was canceled today due to weather. And the monkey doesn’t understand.  He put on his school clothes (pants are inside out  😊), he got his jacket, mask, and backpack. He keeps looking outside hoping the bus will arrive soon . 🥺

It’s Ok

This morning my husband came downstairs and saw me crying. He asked me what was wrong. I told him that I was writing. He understood and asked if I could share when I was done. He knows this is how I am able to let it go. And usually after I write, I do feel…

Grateful

This morning, the monkey was in deep sleep when I went to his room. He hadn’t come over in the middle of the night like he typically does to sleep with us. I gently patted his back and rubbed his legs. “Time to get up buddy.” I whispered to him. He kept his eyes closed…