The monkey’s sleeping wasn’t getting any better. His routine was to wake up at 1, 2, 3, in the morning. He’d turn on all of the lights. Get his iPad. Go downstairs and play on his indoor swing. Run up and down the stairs laughing. Running from my bathroom to his room. This was pretty…

I changed departments at work recently and have been working crazy amount of hours. That’s pretty typical since it’s all new and I need to learn most of it. Add this new job to the monkey not sleeping, well it’s been tough. And as I walk into my office today, I see this note from…

Driving at 2, 3 am while the monkey is humming to his favorite song over and over, I can’t stop my mind from wondering. I see how everyone is asleep. The emptiness of the street makes me feel that we are just not part of this world. How is it possible that 6 or more…

The monkey has a thing about jackets or sweaters. He is fine wearing a jacket for school. Not for home. We give in for something just because we don’t think it is worth the fight. If he wants to go on a drive, he will grab a blanket, wrap it around, and run towards the…

Class was canceled today due to weather. And the monkey doesn’t understand.  He put on his school clothes (pants are inside out  😊), he got his jacket, mask, and backpack. He keeps looking outside hoping the bus will arrive soon . 🥺

This morning my husband came downstairs and saw me crying. He asked me what was wrong. I told him that I was writing. He understood and asked if I could share when I was done. He knows this is how I am able to let it go. And usually after I write, I do feel…

This morning, the monkey was in deep sleep when I went to his room. He hadn’t come over in the middle of the night like he typically does to sleep with us. I gently patted his back and rubbed his legs. “Time to get up buddy.” I whispered to him. He kept his eyes closed…

My phone showed me pictures from four years ago. Usually, the reminders are beautiful memories of special moments captured in a specific instant. I’m sure that’s the point of the automatic reminders. But when I saw the pictures a few days back, from four years ago, they were pics of my son’s bruises. The reminders…

This is how my son uses his indoor swing. He looks like Tarzan!!!! 😃 ❤️

My husband and I grew up in low income homes. Eventhough our parents worked, they didn’t always make enough to cover bills and food. I remember when I was in high school. We had been kicked out of a trailer park for not paying the rent. As much as we tried we just never had…

First day of winter break. This kid woke up at 6 and asked to shower. He then put on his shoe (he can’t find the other one), put on his mask and got his backpack. He is waiting for the bus to arrive. 😔 We keep telling him there’s no class today but he doesn’t…